Lined

Gasping 'cos of polluted air,
Went to the veranda, can't breath . . .
Went to the back door, can't breath . . .
Searching for my own space,
I'm just suffocated with my own breathe.

Waking from the nightmares,
Mom, all I want is just your hug to calm myself.
Walking alone in the dark streets,
Dad, all I want is just your words to usher my way.

Trying to ignore the definitions,
I have no taste to believe in statistics.
Castaway is the ash we've been trying to catch.
How they gonna calculate the depth of scotch in souls ?

Draw a cycle on the ground around me,
Cast a spell of fairy dreams . . .
Mom and Dad,
I've become the one without self.
(BS)

Just a winkle of love

Recap the fairy dreams,

and when I look in to my inside,

Decisions come in the way of too uncleaned.

Anyway, just let my steps to be light.

 

The moon allows the flower to bloom,

that is really in need to heal your wounds.

I just kiss the moonlit breeze,

Just to show my thanks in deep.

 

My friend,

Stop your hurry walk,

Look at the merry blue sky,

Breathe out your worry thoughts,

And just set your happy spirit free to fly ...

(with love B.S.) 

Ways of my surviving

Day by day, old thoughts for the past are swinging restlessly in my brain. If I can get the magic wand, I'll create a room. In that room, I'll let our past running as before. My friend, whatever, days gone by.

I'm the one who was spelled by my own curse. I run, close my eyes and run. I've run. All I can hear is the sound of wind against my ears. When there is nothing left to cling onto, I just embrace your smile and run. I've run to the place of where I can freely breath.

I never try to explain to anyone, my friend, (just like the words once I've read), for the people who understand me, they don't need my explanations. Walking on that way pushes me far from reality. I dream both day and night, just let myself free from that hurts.

Trying to hug the tree, trying to kiss the flower, trying to love the sky, trying to sleep under stars, trying to .................. , one day, I will rest in ground of carefree grass. Wish you will be by my side.

Sometimes, stepping upon the leaves make the sound of broken heart. I was just haunted by my own shadow.

Sometimes, eyes can't hide the inferior in my mind. Missing you throw me deeper to the dark.

I'm the stupid flower who is trying to survive without water.

Scar

All of my reasons are shivering with fear.
Among the silent roar of cryings,
All I can feel is "guilty".
Words lost voice and transform as tears.

We've come from the way too far.
No one has wrong,
Just the choices push us apart.
Memory left my heart with ugly scar.
(bs)