My Days . . .

Before the end of one life,

Give me some time to gaze all the ways I've been through . . .

Usually, I'm the one who forget that Death and me are in one . . .

I've learned we might get thing we don't want and we might not get thing we really want,

But when this actually comes, I don't know how to stand.

Looking at the sky and I said out loud, "Dear Clouds, I Love You !"

I hear no one answered.

I also not sure did I hope or didn't I hope.

How can they see my pain which is dancing behind my smile ?

Sit still at the windy place and try to catch all my running thoughts,

Sit still at the dark corner of the teashop and try to read the book of "Practicing Peace in times of War",

I don't want to scaling up the sufferings . . .

Hopefully, new day will be waiting for me.

(bs)

ဘာရယ္မဟုတ္ပါဘူး . . .

ဘာရယ္မဟုတ္ပါဘူး . . .

သစ္ပင္ေတြကို လြမ္းတယ္။

ကိုယ္ရွဴသြင္းေနရတဲ့ေလကိုေတာင္ မယံု၀့ံတဲ့ဘ၀မွာ

မကမ္းတဲ့လက္ကိုလည္း ငါ မေမွ်ာ္လင့္ရဲေတာ့ဘူး။

ဘာရယ္မဟုတ္ပါဘူး . . .

ရြက္ေၾကြေတြကိုလြမ္းတယ္။

ကိုယ္႔ကိုယ္ကို အႀကိမ္ႀကိမ္သတိေပးခဲ့ပါတယ္

လက္ရည္မတူဘူး

ေရွ.မတိုးနဲ႔ လို႔

အင္းေလ . . . အိပ္မက္ဆိုတာက တားလို႔မွမရတာ။

တာယာမင္းေ၀ေျပာသလို မ်ဥ္းတေၾကာင္းေအာက္မွာ

လူမိုက္အျဖစ္စာရင္းေပါက္ဦးမွာေပါ႔။

ရပါတယ္ . . .

ကိုယ္ကစၿပီး စိန္ေခၚခဲ႔သူကိုး . . .

ဘာရယ္မဟုတ္ပါဘူး

သစ္ရြက္ေတြေလတိုးသံကိုလြမ္းတယ္။    ။

(BS)

The World I want to live . . .

While dawn say hello to the world,

Mist wake up the "Sait Pha Lue" flowers . . .

Letting my breathing deep into their smell,

I dare not open my eyes.

 

Mountain, Lake, trees and breeze will be enough for me.

Mindful to the breeze,

I'll sit freely under the shadow of the tree.

I may read a story . . .

I may write a poem . . .

I may say prayer . . .

Or I may be smiling to the flying birds.

 

I'll salute to the setting sun.

Love the image of sun in the lake.

Why should I let the music of the nature un wake ?

It is embracing me . . .

 

Under the starry sky,

I'll try to make the sand as my bed.

My world,

Let me fall asleep in peace . . .

(bs)

 

Indecisiveness

Don't know where I am standing . . .

Out of reach to reality.

Confidentiality ?

Everyone walks their own ways . . .

After being abandoned by my Utopia,

None of my happiness is near me.

 

Don't know where I am leading . . .

How much have I been influenced by your teaching ?

Lost myself in the fairy tales,

I wonder my rest of the days.

Killing by my own shadows,

Which weapons should I hold to keep my vows ?

(BS) 

Didn't I tell you, I'm such a fool . . .

Stepping upon the slopes,

Let the wounds heal while counting down the jokes.

(You may know how hard it is if you are in my shoes.)

How much have I been hoping from you ?

Few of my understanding is just in the right place.

 

Set my hands free,

But my minds will take time to be at peace.

Don't let the norms shadow your logical dreams,

Survive with all your means.

 

My vow, my discipline and my prayer . . .

You are my everything forever.

(bs)

Lies

My eyes can't follow your story,

Spinning round and round inside the interpretations.

I hate of my hope upon you !

I disgust of my trust upon you !

I'll try to live in your smell of ignorance.

 

My heart is just my biggest enemy !

I should imprisoned myself with my own rules.

Fool is the name you gonna call me,

When all my whisperings you hear.

 

Keep on moving on your believes . . .

I'll be just a dust in your eye that you really disgust . . .

Shut up your pretended glance !

Left me just like a dead . . .

Anyway, I'll try to love you the way I use to do . . .

(bs)

Flying

The world is filled with Clouds,

Big icy cotton village.

Tiny mists,

Don't hesitate to pass through my face.

I will never hurt you.

I'm swinging like a leaf in the Clouds.

Sometimes, fall like a stone.

I'm flying like a kite.

I wonder the picture of the sky . . .

I wonder the lights of the stars . . .

I wonder the sparkling of the lightening  . . .

I love to fly in the sky.

All in my face and mind is just a smile.

(bs)

Against myself . . .

Days,

I'm trying to clutch all the unreal excuses.

Nights,

I'm trying to fetch all the unreal images.

 

You may ask, what's up with you.

All I've learnt is manipulating my every perceptions.

Without affection, my ways will be kind of blur.

Forget it !

I'll lit my lanes with serenity.

 

I've lost you in that misty morning.

The castaway has started in that morning.

I let myself down on my knees in that morning.

Anyway, I'll try to survive for many new coming mornings.

 

I should have known that,

Smile can cast a spell just through the air.

I should have known that,

Eyes can cast a spell to become waiting just for sacrifices.

How long have I been burn ?

 

I'll run as far as I can . . .

By neglecting all the pains which I've been suffered.

I'm the hero of my war.

I'm the victim of my war.

Passing days of defeating myself,

One day, I'll reveal all my regrets.

(bs)